This week has been brutal. I’m beginning to feel like Marvin, the paranoid android, from The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. Both paranoid and depressed. But not with a brain the size of a planet. That’s where we differ.
But really, yesterday could not have been a happy one. It was the two year anniversary of my c-section. When I delivered my stillborn son, Felix. That’s a lowdown no-good kind of funk that is really hard to fight. Today was a better day. And despite the bumps in the road, this year really is starting out better than the last.
Bonus: When I watched the trailer for Wanted the action sequences reminded me of something. Of the Russian Night Watch and Day Watch (and before long Twilight Watch) tetralogy. And sure enough, it’s the same director - Timur Bekmambetov. That alone will get my butt into a seat at the theater.
Plus: Speaking of, today I tagged along with co-workers…to snag passes for a free screening of Cloverfield, the much blogged about movie (with the ominous tagline “Some Thing Has Found Us”). Unfortunately the passes are admit one only. Often the passes are admit two at these screenings. But who can argue with free? If it sucks, at least I didn’t pay for it.
And: Speaking of movies that do suck…I submitted to a viewing of the incredibly baaaaaad Batman & Robin this evening, to please the little man. The Dark Knight will be a far sight better, no doubt, but too scary for the lad to see just yet.
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I’m glad things are getting better.
It’s apparent that I’ve been reading your blog a long time: this evening (before reading this post), I was thinking about Felix. As my mother would say, he must be in the ether.
Wow, that’s the kind of lowdown not even a long, hot shower will fix. I hope you’re feeling better. Thinking of you. xo
Thanks.
And shokufeh, I think you’re right! I didn’t mention this anniversary to the little man, but just last night he started talking about the time I spent in the hospital…when his little brother died. Sigh.
honey, whenever you need a hug, you know i am in saint paul and will come over and hook you up.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
i’m sorry to hear that things kept mounting yesterday. i’m around on AIM today, if you want to talk. i’ll probably bug you later anyway. you’re becoming one of my favorite people i’ve met here and we haven’t even met.
I’ve been reading you’re blog for a long time now. I originally just followed the links from your photos on flickr -I loved seeing through your eyes. You take such fantastic shots, and I’ve enjoyed feeling like I’ve gotten to know you a bit through the reading. I feel like a bit of a lurker, but so often you clue me in to so many great sites, like the Superest.
I’m sorry about the anniversary of your loss. I can’t imagine. It jolts me to read of it, because I have a son named Felix. I hope your dark days clear up soon. peace
Hey you…
I haven’t visited your site for a while now but I had some time this afternoon to catch up on the interesting life of my ex-next door neighbor. I remember those days when your were pregnant…you were so beautiful and so happy. I am sorry for the loss. I know it wasn’t just you that felt the sadness and heart break but you were the one that already had a relationship with Felix. I miss you and I hope we can get together soon!
Mary - formally known as “hey neighbor”
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