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Spread Your Bloody Wings

Some days it doesn’t pay to get out of bed. But there are no viable alternatives. Unpleasantness needs to be faced head on or it will fester. So now I’ve got another failed relationship attempt to add to the heap. It’s never easy when things fall apart but this time? It feels particularly hard, because there was so much potential. I’d never been with someone I’d had SO much in common with. So many mutual interests. Mutual friends. And, most importantly, such great mutual affection. But also so many miscommunications and awful amounts of fighting. Way way too much. That burned away any good will we’d felt and now all that common ground is lost.

There are no sides in this situation. No bad guys. No wrongdoing. Just a lot of hurt feelings and frustration. But I will keep calm and carry on. Because I’ve got to.

Five good things:

  • My son. Amazing as ever. And overjoyed when I let him pick out our Giftmas Tree today.
  • The reason we were at a tree farm to begin with - some very lovely people hired me to take holiday portraits of their families in that idyllic spot. And the weather cooperated with us quite nicely.
  • Never expected to see Takashi Murakami’s work in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade.
  • Just when I need his comforting, comedic presence most I discover that Steve Coogan’s Saxondale is now available via Netflix Instant (and I’ve only just gotten hooked on Californication, the same way).
  • Another new episode of The Walking Dead airs tonight.

Keeping calm and carrying on may seem to involve too much escapism, but that’s how I do things. My next kid-free evening I plan to see Easy A at a second run theater and hit up a happy hour. The week ahead will also find me recording backup vocals for my friends’ band and working on some art projects. It won’t necessarily be easy to keep my chin up but I can do this thing.


One Comment

  1. Heather wrote:

    Oh, I am terribly late in this, but I am just now scanning through your blog and wanted to say I’m so sorry to hear about you and Dan. I want to say more, but I’m not sure what else I can say. I just hope that you are happy and feeling good about yourself. You are a pretty awesome gal. :)

    Saturday, December 18, 2010 at 11:17 pm | Permalink

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