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I Kinda Want To Slay The Dragon

Apparently I don’t have such a knack for the scheduling. I thought this evening would be perfect for the little man’s birthday party. A lot of other folks have thought it would be perfect too…for their own events. Events that I would otherwise like to attend. So I’m missing out on a local Neil Gaiman book reading/signing at Dreamhaven. My mother-in-law is up north, spending the weekend with one of her hard-to-pin-down, severely overscheduled sisters. It’s a free family day at the historic Sibley House (won’t have time to nip over there as we’ll be preparing for the party…something I should be doing right this very moment). And there will be a celebration this evening marking the 10 Year Anniversary of the Women’s Prison Book Project, at the Loft Literary Center. On the plus side…the little man’s godless parents, Dave and Huey-Ling, have recently returned from their 7+ week vacation. His fairy godless mother is also in the country (around this time last year she was lounging in Italy). And the boy’s bio-dad has flown back, from his new digs in the Bay Area, for the party. So I really should be getting my ass in gear. But I’m having a hard time with that. Lately I’ve felt simultaneously over and underwhelmed. What’s making it so much worse, I foolishly gave up coffee this week. Again. And am finding it difficult to function (which is one reason I haven’t posted yet, along with my compatriots, over at New Patriot, or migrated this site to the aforementioned CMS). All right. Enough with the whining. Time to make with the motivation.

mutant enemy

Shock And Awe

Life is full of little surprises. All day yesterday I’d been dreading the afternoon, and it wasn’t a happy kind of dread. I had desperately wanted to see The Owls last night, playing a free outdoor show at the most spectacular venue…and they couldn’t have ordered better weather for it. But two factors caused attendance to be an improbability for me:
1) No available, reliable little man sitter; and
2) I went and scheduled his five year checkup for the afternoon, as it was the only day and time that would work.
Even if I’d had a sitter, I didn’t think it would be fair to leave my distraught boy after the appointment…as the little man and doctor’s visits have never mixed well. Year one was especially difficult, with the constant crappy ear infections and two different surgeries. Thankfully he’s been extremely healthy since then. Now it’s just an annual physical, and maybe a visit or two over the year for the nastier of colds. The physical is always the hardest part though. For his four year he flailed and thrashed so much we couldn’t even get his height and weight. There’s often excessive, out of character screaming to go with the squirming. And for the last couple of years he’s fought me tooth and nail to keep ALL of his clothes on. So yesterday my nerves were shot just thinking about the upcoming appointment. I kept my cool, though, and upon arrival we were ushered in quickly. The little man was suprisingly cooperative initially, and allowed the nurse to take height, weight and blood pressure. When asked to walk down the hall for the vision and hearing tests, however, he declined. As he also did when asked to strip down. Not wanting to upset him I let it slide, as did his doc when she entered. We discussed the last year while the boy kept himself occupied with toys. When it was time to check his ears, nose, throat, etc. the doc and I were both cringing, but in a shocking upset the little man sat still and allowed her to probe. I think this is thanks, in part, to some classtime spent talking about health care and playing doctor. As we gingerly inched our way towards the end of the checkup the doc and I stepped out in the hallway, quietly discussing booster shots. We decided reinforcement would be necessary. But beforehand I had to wrestle the little man’s long-sleeved shirt off. I told him he could keep on his short sleeved t-shirt (the boy loves layers), but this did nothing to calm him. The tantrum I had been waiting for was unleashed. It was partially a power struggle, and partially, I think, because he’d been keeping his cool for so long and it was the first time the two of us had been alone. Amazingly I was able to calm him down just in time for a burly male nurse to come in, along with the giver of shots. The little man was held in a solid bearhug of a grip, and, as the needles were prepared, he was asked to turn his head and look at his mommy. Instead he stared down the needle, and didn’t flinch during any of the three shots. The boy barely blinked. When told the last one would sting a bit he just shrugged it off, and briefly rubbed it afterwards. Needless to say, all the adults in the room, myself included, were shocked by his blasé attitude. While I want to be proud of him for it, I am more alarmed…attributing it to sensory integration dysfunction, which has given him a higher than normal pain tolerance. But, overall, it went far more smoothly than any of us expected. And the boy was in high spirits when we headed out for the soy ice cream he was promised.

In other news, the birthday party extravaganza is slated for tomorrow.
Balloons have been ordered.
Presents have been wrapped.
Birthday cake ingredients, other food items and beverages have been procured.
Serious hardcore cleaning is in progress, and will continue throughout the night.
Photos will be posted afterwards.

rocking horse, looking out

We’ve Come A Long Way, Baby

I’ll be honest, five years ago today I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Sure, I’d spent the previous 40 weeks coming to terms with the idea of motherhood, and reading parenting books of all stripes, but nothing could have prepared me for the reality of it all. From the tears of joy and frustration…to the overwhelming love…and the projectile vomiting…we’ve been through it all. Happy Birthday, my darling little man.
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Rock And Roll Confidential

The other night I was too tired to be productive, but sleep was still eluding me. Kiddie corner from one another on our computers, the husband scoffed after he witnessed me wasting an hour or so…perusing this gallery of bad band photos, and he cringed each time I guffawed while doing so (the captions are often insensitive, but some are oh so funny). So many shots brought to mind my step-brother’s hair band from the 80s, The Regime, whose claim to fame was opening for Warrant once. I hung on to one of their choice publicity photos and have scanned it for your viewing pleasure (my step-bro is the vaguely Gallegher-ish looking dude on the far left - click for a larger version). But my question is this…would I burn in a special hell for submitting said photo to the Hall of Douchebags? Hmmm.

The Regime

Mommy’s Little Monster

I’m such a lightweight. My earlier dose of allergy meds pretty much left me incapacitated. All I could do was lie on the couch in the computer room as the little man did a convincing imitation of his mother…by making use of two computers at once. I’m still a bit fuzzy, but I have a clear memory of him watching not one, but two styles of claymation, each starring dynamic duos. On my machine he played some Gumby and Pokey clips. On the husband’s, Wallace and Gromit. I’ve created a monster.
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standing tall

It’s Not The Fall That Kills You, It’s The Landing

On this Monday I am…
…worried about Barrett and his mom, but don’t know what to say.
…disgusted that, in Baghdad, carrying nothing more dangerous than a microphone is enough to get working journalists killed, by Americans, yet here, in the U.S., Americans can legally begin buying assault weapons.
Today cynicism prevails.
In trivial non-news…I finally broke down and choked down some allergy/sinus meds, which seem to have cleared my nasal passages for the first time in an age. But dang, I don’t like what I’m smelling. Time to hit the shower, before the little man comes home from school demanding his lunch.
And in tasty, pre-lunch news, the husband just returned from the eye doctor (again) and gave me a little lesson about tears, and how they are composed of three layers:

The mucous layer coats the cornea, priming the eye like a base coat for tears to adhere. The middle layer is 98 percent water, along with some salt and proteins, and provides moisture and oxygen to the cornea. The outer layer is an oily film that seals the tear film on the eye and slows evaporation.

Umm, yum?

This Is Me Breathing

Friday morning I was scanning the news. There was a headline that looked familiar, but it was a story I hadn’t bothered to follow…not knowing then how it related to me. For whatever reason I decided to read it, an act that unexpectedly brought to light new information regarding my friend’s death in July.

Zell faces charges in connection with a fatal crash on July 20. Authorities allege that before she sped through a stop sign and smashed into a pickup truck, she told her two passengers, “this is how you drive crazy.” One of her passengers, Joshua Schmidt, 30, of Stillwater, died. A second rider was paralyzed.

After the initial shock wore off I shared the information with my friend Monica. We have similar feelings on the subject.

Not only was she drunk, but she was intentionally driving recklessly. I am not a huge fan of incarceration, but I hope that woman is punished.

In other, hard to place news…as we drove over the High Bridge yesterday afternoon we passed by a lone man, stationary and staring ahead, holding an American flag. On our way home we wondered if he’d still be carrying out his solitary vigil but, alas, he had gone.

And in happier news, a very polite designer gentleman emailed me…requesting permission to use one of my photos (not one of my best, but it served his purposes) in a project. It was a refreshing change, considering the problem I’ve had with bandwidth theft…folks finding my photos via google or yahoo image searches, then linking directly to them on their own pages.

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pebbles
triangle rings
my monkey on the monkey bars
playboosters
aintenan fund

We Have Lift Off

The little man is on his way to school. When the bus pulled up he started running for it, full bore. Now I too must haul ass…to meet a client deadline. Lucky for me I’m fully caffeinated and listening to Radio K. But I am going to be hella pissed off if this Neil Diamond song becomes my latest earworm.

Curse Your Sudden But Inevitable Betrayal

Earlier the husband and I were forging ahead with the yard work, while the little man played nearby. Before long he was joined by one of the neighbor boys, who, at one point turned to me with a shit-eating grin on his face, and matter-of-factly said “so, I heard he (gesturing towards the little man) rides the short bus”. What’s proper etiquette here? It seemed like he was trying to get a rise out of me and he nearly did. I felt like uninviting him to the upcoming birthday party. Instead I calmly replied “yes, sometimes he rides the little bus to school…other times he takes a regular-sized bus” which is true. But before I could elaborate, and make some point about tolerance and not singling people out for their differences, the kid had scampered off.

To Be Left Behind Stirs Such Anger And Hopelessness

Today our neighbor friend started school, as did many of the neighborhood children. But the little man did not. I thought he would. I was prepared, psyched, even, for him to start school today. Alas, our district is strange…and the programs for younger children, like the school readiness classes and kindergartens, do not commence until Thursday. But we do have an open house to attend tomorrow. In the mean time we have one cranky lad to contend with.
On a happier note…Life Sized Ugly Dolls. Certainly made me smile.